Embarrassing Bravery

I've been quiet here and everywhere lately...I haven't been feeling great, so I sit back. It hasn't been a bad couple of months, but definitely a bit of a struggle to be happy each day. I always talk about how it is important to BE OPEN and SHARE...but you know what - when you are struggling - it ain't easy my friend.

I haven't been feeling great, and I have come to realize that even someone like me, who is open, who now because of this website, all my friends and family know whats going on with my experience with depression...it's still incredibly hard to discuss and even admit to myself when I am not feeling good. If I am feeling good, you can't shut me up about it, but when not good - its my instinct to hide.

The good thing about being open with, specifically my husband or a trusted friend, is that they can see it before me. For them to say something like, "How are you feeling?" "Are you OK?" kind of brings it out in the open so i can not hide and can not retreat into the darkness..at least with out a fight.

This is hard stuff to talk about. Its really hard. When I am feeling low, its the last thing I want to share with anyone! And for those first timers...those that are going through this right now who maybe have never admitted this illness exists within them. I feel you -I get you.

I am thinking about a quote from the movie We Bought A Zoo:

"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it." - Benjamin Mee

If you (we) can talk about things even when they are hard, You (we) will realize we don't have to fight this alone.

'Be brave - Its scary, but its worth it.'  - hey i think i just said that..that could be a quote i could quote;)